The Way of the Light

So, In my life, even though I didn’t work towards jobs and estates, I spent my time working at something that most people ignore.

I did the inner work.

I broke free.

Now, I am Dutch, and we Dutch people have very strong work ethics. So, I didn’t just sit with myself, I spent over 10 years living in extreme poverty, making everything resourcefully beautiful. My walls are filled with art I painted myself, and I have a generational art gallery now with Moms paintings and Opal’s visionary art.

I went to food banks and spent $10 on saffron to turn it into a gourmet meal.

I spent full time hours walking hours on foot through Hamilton’s inner city, the Bruce trails and to the bottom of waterfalls to wash away the pain as I sat with it.

I lived in waterfront properties and I have been homeless. I followed synchronicities with a guitar on my back and found communities. Through education, loss, addiction, mental health and physical health challenges, through bullying and betrayal, through grounding, reconnecting, faith, forgiveness, empowerment, and free birth, I am on the other side of something most people don’t even recognize.

No, I didn’t build what you did and I didn’t ignore the calling in my soul. Despite the pull from everyone.

“You can’t do that” They said

“You have to be practical”

“We all have to sacrifice our dreams”

“How are you going to survive”

During the years on the fence of that, I’d work jobs and feel so desperate. I studied Marxism and Hegel and Freud and Jung.

I knew too much.

I went too deep and almost drown in depression a few times. Isolating myself out of protection from a world I understood as hostile and destructive. I watched the videos of how elephants are trained, PETA pleas for help, signed petitions for hours.

And during those years on the fence, I believed what they believed. That it was reality.

But I didn’t stop there, remember, I’ve got to understand and reconcile how inspired people are doing it.

the Secret came out and I read New Earth.

So I started to try to manifest.

I ran into a snag.

I was manifesting my unconscious beliefs.

So then I read, How to think and grow rich, millionaire mindsets, Tony robbins. There was a pattern and in that pattern was creativity, innovation and faith.

I went deeper into divine feminine awakening. Women Who Run With The Wolves, was an incredible tool for this. I wrote an art poetry book with Evelisa Genova and Jessica Adel. Our Guilded Being- A Resurrection Of The Sacred Feminine. We never published it but we created something that seeded the Quantum Field. It is Beautiful. I printed it on linen Paper and sealed it with capped bolts in the punch holes.

I used repetitive affirmations, and applied these principles, took money out of the picture because my beliefs were so deeply understood about capitalism. That’s when I started to see results that cultivated a deeper faith in the process.

I went deeper into sound frequency, heart mind coherence, the Gaia network, plant medicine and empowered health. 369.

I volunteered 432hz music at the hospital lobby for years and brought that to the creek during the few years we forgot our freedoms. (And they also used repetitive affirmations) I played piano at the chapel at ymca and in the foodbank waiting for my turn.

That lead to deeper healing.

I wasn’t just unpacking and healing my soul work, I started unpacking generational wounds and healing them. For years I looked after my elderly mother and came to understand my childhood, mental health, forgiveness and boundaries differently.

As I became a mom I was gifted by their spirits. Opal gave me fearlessness and Jasmine gave me resilience.

By this time, I started to see miracles. I started to branch out from healing just myself to impacting the nature, the wildlife, the gardens, the people around me.

Faith was so strong I became ordained as a minister through Open Ministries. And I’ll dedicate a whole blog to the details of that development. It was a steady rise from childhood within me.

Last summer, Starchild 432hz came through.

It completed 30 years of music writing as Somehow was written when I was just 12 years old. The vision was ready to share and all aspects of that fell into divine timing.

No, I didn’t work on estates and jobs.

I did the soul work.

I followed the voice of inspiration within me, and found a way to reignite the flame when I let the driving narratives of this reality snuff it out.

I worked on my own energetic technology and to do that I had to be completely transparent with myself. I took every negative reaction to me and instead of ignoring it or denying it, I transmuted it into understanding what feels authentic to me, and why, and being accountable to myself to consistently show up for it.

I have worked full time at aligning my frequencies with nature and walking in unity with source light. I remember.

Now this partnership is so aligned that my light is eternal and my merkaba is spinning. The light of Brahma activates with fluidity. My pineal gland ignites everytime I hug. My body speaks to me, my intuition howls, and my energy activates.

I’ve gone so far down this rabbit hole, friends, that the reflection people get when coming towards me for healing can be too in-depth, too triggering. I understand that, but I won’t apologize for it. I can be more graceful about it though, and will hold myself accountable for that.

What happens now that I have so thoroughly done the inner work and completed a creative project that all took a lifetime of work. Not 9-5 and not half there, but life and trauma and the inner scope of mental and physical health, and 30 years of jam houses, performances, magical musical moments, learning, expanding, ego death, taking huge risks, loosing everything I owned a few times, the hungry walks to feed my soul, art therapy, ecotherapy, plant medicine, my time with Jackie green at the native regional Indian centre, music therapy, beginning today program, broken relationships, and learning to accompany myself with multi instruments, weight gain, weight loss, free birth, dream analysis, grief and my heart breaking open, healing, using my gift requests at Christmas for donations to Thailands Elephant Nature Foundation, becoming ordained, quantum jumping- all of it, 24hrs a day, went into the creation of this inspired action.

It may seem to those who have ignored quantum reality in their own lives like I am rising now so quickly because of the way that I look, or I am lucky or that things come to me easily. Well, they do now, and probably quicker than most, because the way I perceive time is no longer linear. I did the inner work. The way that I perceive time and space is infinite. I navigate through a field of energy that I see with my heart.

It is no longer something I do when I get a moment to go to a waterfall or into the creek. It is my consistent reality. I am stillness in chaos, I am the light.

For detailed poetic, musical wisdom that was created for the Starchild of every age, that will inspire you through your rights of passage, listen to Starchild 432hz

Listen to Quantum:

https://open.spotify.com/track/5aBqajzdWyfw2oG411KdgQ?si=Ix1T-PHyRFiizro6NOevAg